Dear Crystal - the first post

Dear Crystal,

It's been exactly one week you left us. Grandpa and Mummy miss you so much.

Still can't believe you left us suddenly, it happened all so quickly in one day. In the morning you still ran to me in the morning to greet, looking at me and wagging that cute fluffy tail of yours. And at night no matter how come I tell you how much I love you, how much I don't want you to left, don't give up, stay with us... In the end you still had to go. I still remember you were lying on the floor and when I started cleaning you, you tried to wag your tail and made some noise. Its not till I was half done I realised you were quiet. When I went to your head, you didn't move. I kept shouting Crystal Crystal. I kept patting you. There was no response. 

Keep wishing you leaving us was just a dream and I will quickly wake up from this horrible nightmare. Sometimes it doesn't feel like you left, it still feel like you are at home waiting for us to come home. Every time when I go into our room and see that you and your bed isn't there is the times that I know its not a dream, its true you've left us. Every morning I always get to see you next to me, but now all I see is nothing on the floor.

Keep thinking over and over why did you suddenly don't want us anymore. It's not till you left that I realised there is so much stuff I said I will do with you, things I will do with you, places I will take you. 

Your grandpa starting crying at work when he was chopping chicken cause it was only a few days ago we were chopping chicken for you. I will never forget how a picky eater you are. Getting unwell when we buy you cheap, normal chicken. Will only eat free range chicken or organic chicken. Your chicken was even more expensive than the dinner we have that's for two. But its these annoying things you do that make you extra special.

In college the other day I went to the deli counter to get a chicken salad sandwich. Because you like eating bread, chicken, cucumber and lettuce. When I was in class eating, I started crying. All I have in my head was that silly cute face you have when you are eating something you love.

Misa only tried to look for you the first day you left, seeing this lets me see how good it is to be so small and innocent, not understanding anything at such young age. But sometimes I think, lots of people say dogs can see ghosts and spirits, maybe she isn't upset like us because she can see you, you are with us. 

I don't know why, but we have this feeling the vets could of helped you more or maybe slowed down the process or lessen the pain. I really didn't want to take up the offer from the vet to put you to sleep that late afternoon. I don't understand how you went in there fine and come back out saying you need to be put to sleep. You hated that place and I know you would be happier leaving and going home. They said you were weak, but you dashed to the car and jumped up. So happy to go home. 

Even though you were getting weaker that night, you still tried to go upstairs to our room. When I took phone out and said I want to take a picture, your face was so happy. Your eyes got all big and round and look so cute. How can a happy looking dog suddenly leave that night?

You really are a wonderful dog. Even though it's your last night, you still act all cute wanting to put your head on my lap. Got all annoyed when we stopped massaging you. Look all awake and cute when I took pictures, Really want to thank you for leaving such beautiful pictures for us. You really are the best family anyone can ever ask for. 

Really think you are silly, only three days left and it was your 10th birthday. We already told you we will buy you a big steak for a birthday treat. Or maybe we are the silly ones. Monday was your favourite day of the week cause its grandpa and mummy's day off. You are always so happy and expect us to take you out. Always run to the door when we get up and put our jackets on. Park on a good day. A drive about in the car on a rainy day. You were always so excited on Monday and so hyper. Maybe that's why you decided you want to leave on your favourite day, so both of us can spend your last night together. 

Really thank you for giving me a chance to have you as my daughter. Having you as part of our family was amazing. There was good and bad times. Now it's all turned to lovely memories. Really wished you let me spoil you for a bit longer. Feel like you've not enjoyed life enough. 

I love you loads Crystal. Will never forget you. Hope your next life will be even better than this one. Hope we can meet again in the next life.

R.I.P.

Crystal Fung

07.11.2003 - 04.11.2013

The Thin Executioner - By Darren Shan - Book Review

Think no matter if you are a Darren Shan fan or not, you should give this book a try. It is amazing! From the start to the end. Actually wish it can be longer. Love reading the adventures Jebel and Tel Hesani went through.



**SPOILER ALERT**
I guessed Jebel will start to be friends with Tel Hesani. And it was great how you can see Jebel changed. From a little boy just wanting to prove to everyone especially his father and Debbat he isn't as worthless and suddenly goes off to a hard quest which its impossible for him. We can see how he slowly change his views off the world, he matures and think of lower class people-slaves. I guessed Jebel and Bas would be together at the end, was a easy guess.

I was surprised with the ending, as the title says thin executioner, I thought it would just be a simple book about Jebel going to adventures and trials to become a executioner. When he completed his quest, I totally forgot about Tel Hesani's family would be executed if Jebel doesn't return. So I thought Jebel would forget about Wadi his hometown, and travel and learn more about different tribes/nations. Or he go home and life a simple life of a teacher or something even when he went through everything. I was hoping Tel Hesani wouldn't die at the end, but I got a feeling he would, but never thought he was killed the creepy crazy man Qasr Bint.

When I was reading this book, I thought Darren Shan wrote this book differently from the other books I've read (cirque, demonata, larten crespley, zom-b etc) Normally his books will have a lot horrible gory scenes,  but I thought maybe he was just trying something different. There was lots of killing and torturing but it wasn't a big deal compare to the usual demons and zombies kinda thing. But when this crazy man Qasr Bint came out. When the story introduced him in and after a chapter or two you can see the horror and gore of Darren Shan. Qasr Bint is a horrible man, he is a crazy villian. In the usual villain in a Darren Shan it will just be like demons and zombies, things you expect to be mentally sick. But Qasr Bint was just a human being, with a sick twisted mind. Seriously? Making everything torture each other is to clean out everyone's sins? I love how Jebel asked if he's so clean why can't everyone kill him. This man just wants power and everyone to do what he wants. Torturing and killing people is just fun for him. At least that's what I think. I thought Jebel and Tel Hesani would escape somehow or trick him into the rock spirits. But instead Tel Hesani remembered their adventures before about the clan that live peace with nature. And use that against them and let the bats kill them. I never thought Qasr Bint will make it alive though. Seriously, this guy is crazy thinking he's like doing God a favor or something.

Revenge is good, Bush and Blair. Stealing and greed got them. Was happy my thoughts of tricking something to the rock sprites was right. It's like karma, they always steal from the dead and this time they were greedy and want treasures, letting Jebel to have a chance to let the rock sprites eat them! Even thought Bush and Blair are villains in this story, I quite like them. The wee ball they have to kill people is quite cool. They want to enjoy life. Ways to steal. Was quite fun to read the parts with them in it. But I guess in the end they get what they deserve.

Darren Shan is really amazing. I really love reading Jebel and Tel Hesani when they go to different parts of the country. How each part of the country have different beliefs, they ways the live, different Gods, different views. I guess it is just like what our world is like but the places they were to is really interesting. People living in harmony with snakes and alligators. And bats to some, that kinda remind me of vampires. A bat suck blood from a cow then the people suck blood from the same wound. The Siq sounds like a really cool place. The people in it are interesting. At first when they bought the head back to the family, I thought they don't care if  family die during their trials but it wasn't true. They put the head in this thing and replace the oldest head in there. And people that mourn for that oldest head would be dead anyways so no one will feel upset. Interesting way to mourn for someone. Even though your loved ones are gone but you can still go see them cause their soul is still there. Strange kind of grave I guess. I wonder if all these nations and tribes are all made up or were they reference of some parts of the world.

One thing I don't like about the book would be probably everyone and place's name. So hard to remember at first haha.

I really enjoyed this book. I would definitely recommend to other people and read again some time. I really like the Cirque and Demonata and Larten Crespley series but this book is really good too. I won't know which one is my favourite. This book is different from the rest apart from being shorter haha. Cirque and Crespley series are easy to read. You'll just reading and reading. But Thin Executioner, it make you stop sometimes and think about what happened or why it happened. I'm not sure how to explain but I'm guessing its cause this book is aimed at slightly older audience than the Cirque. It involves a lot more. Slavery, people's beliefs, religions etc. It's more real. Lots of the problems and people in the book, would be easily found in the real world.

This is definitely 5/5 book. Thanks Darren Shan for writing. =)

Love dicky Cheung!!!!

Big Four Concert was kinda disappointing, a bit boring :( but I get to see 張衛健!!! Love watching his dramas since I was a kid ^^